Okay, so I was doing so good, putting Z~ out of my life until yesterday.  What happened yesterday?  Well I'll tell you.  I was online looking at a friend's new pictures that they had uploaded to their webpage.  So anyway, as I was about to comment one of thier pictures I noticed another picture, this one was of Zack.  Now I have seen Z~ & many pictures of him, and it's never bothered me, but this picture of him was different.  It was a new one, but in his eyes I saw a shadow of a man I once knew, a man once cared about, a man I once loved.  GOD!  This is crazy, it was like when I saw that picture all of the old memories came flooding back.  I hate feeling like this.  I was doing so good without him, and I feel like I'm being pulled back in.  There's always so much drama when he's in my life, but at the same time, I sort of want him in my life.  When we're good, we're real good, but when things are bad, they're horrible.   AAW!  I hate going through this drama with him.