I want to be

Comfortably numb.

I want to forget

All the pain

The pain that I somehow brought upon myself.

I want to drink that bottle of whisky

And forget everything.

I want to forget

That I deserve

What happened to me

When I was only 15.

I want to forget

That it's somehow my fault

That a guy I only knew a few hours

Forced me to do something I didn't want to do.

But somehow I deserved it.

I want to forget

That day that another

Slung me into the wall

And beat the shit out me

But I deserved it

Because I was trying to protect my best friend

From the wrath of his evil hand.

I told you I deserved it.

I want to forget

How Z lied to me

How he promised he was my best friend

But he abandoned me when i needed him most

Because he was only using me

So that he could hopefully seduce me into his bed.

I deserve to be treated like a cheap whore

Because I believed all his foolish lies.

I want to forget

How the man who promised to always love and cherish me

And to forever protect me

Left bruises on me.

But that too was my fault

Because I started the argument that went horribly wrong

I deserved that too.

The blade on this knife

Isn't sharp enough to end the pain

But the bottle of Jim

Seems to scream out my name.

I want to be comfortably numb

I want to forget all the pain

That I obviously deserve

Because, somehow, I put myself into these situations

I have no one to blame

Except for myself

I deserve it.......