So i know i've been gone for a while, but i've been trying to work through things, trying to forget things, as i'm sure many of you can relate.. So anyways, I'm doing good, better, i can't forget, at least not yet (hopefully someday though), but I'm moving forward... I'm still wondering whether or not i should post my last few poems on my myspace page (cause if i do, then chances are he's going to read it, which doesn't really bother me, infact i kinda want him to, so that he knows that i and everyone else know exactly what kind of monster he is and what he done to those girls) but at the same time, i'm not sure if it would be a smart decision. In other news, but kinda related, i've dyed my hair again! My natural color is DARK brown, i've had it red, and most recently it was blond, but now it's black w/ red highlights (which sometimes looks purple if the sunlight hits it just right LOL)... I like it, and my husband loves it.. He says it's the next best color besides my natural color (he really didn't like the blond)... I dyed as part of my "forgetting the pain & past" phase, or whatever you want to call it. I just want to move on and forget that Zack ever existed, and if by some chance he finds this page and reads these words (if i don't post my poems on my myspace page) then i hope he knows that this time i mean it.... I haven't had any contact with him since i learned the truth (except for telling him to leave me the hell alone), and i want to keep it that way.... So i'm finally getting back to writing, today i wrote my first poem in almost a month.... It's kinda a tribute to my hubby Tim, and how he's always saving me (mostly from myself, and my own inner demons, but from the outside fears as well.)... We've had a lot of squabbles lately, mostly over stupid stuff, and mostly my fault, but we're doing good, compromise is key to any marraige.... So anyways, here's the poem i wrote, hope you enjoy! COME SAVE ME!! Come save me I'm drowning in sorrow Wishing the pain would end today Rather than tomorrow. Come save me Before the last breath is gone I gasp and gasp As I do my best to hold on. Come save me Like all the other times before My saving grace Help me cry no more. Come save me From hurt, pain, and fear Come find me lying helpless Please dry away my tears. Once again I need you Come save me You're always rescuing me Come save me |