Oh, and the stress continues....  Took my kids to the doctor today..  My son was diagonosed with asthma a little over a month ago..  And started right away on asthma medicine...  We thought we were getting it under control when he went back 10 days later for his checkup.. At that time, we thought him & his sister were just getting head colds... Well my son's cold cleared up, but my daughter's did not, so she returned about 2 weeks ago and was put on a stronger cold medicine... At that time she had an ear infection as well, so the doctor & myself thought it was nothing more than a cold bug...  Still no help & her cold has only been getting worse & then Ty got sick again.. So today we returned to the doctor to find out that Ty (my son) is having an asthma flare up, my daughter has a throat infection, and has now been diagnosed with asthma as well...  Now both kids are on singulair (once a day at night) Pulmicort (an inhaled preventive medicine given in the morning and at night) and albuterol (an inhaled corticosteriod (rescue medicine) taken 3times a day for the next 10 days).... Hopefully when they return to the doctor in 11 days, we will have finally gotten both of their asthma under control... The doctor has now increased 2 of Ty's medicine's to higher doses, so hopefully this will work....  If this works then we just do the pulmicort & singulair... And if they are better, then they will be able to get the flu shot... WHich we desperatly need because my son is 3 & my daughter 2, and they've each had the flu shot every year, and every year still gotten the flu....  And my daughter, God bless her, has had the RSV virus four times... Now with both of them taking asthma, i can't afford to take any chances with the flu.... I would have gotten them the shots sooner, but the doctors just got them in today.... UGGGHH!!!  Anyways, i have to make sure i give them their medicines on time, every day, no missing a dose.... This is their life we're talking about, and I have to make sure i do it for them....

Tim's overtime finally came back today!! Hooray!  It's a wonderful thing... For the past month, he hasn't been allowed to work any overtime, (long story why) but it's really hurt us...  We've had to fall behind on our bills so that i could buy food & medicine's for our children...  I mean we only have to pay a $2 copay per prescription, but I have filled A LOT of  prescriptions in the past few weeks.. Today to get all the medicines and a little bit of food, i had to take the money that I was suppossed to pay my cell phone bill with..But hopefully with Tim's overtime being back I can still pay it by the 10th, cause i'm already behind half a month... And they've already shut my direct-tv off cause i was behind 2 months on that... But that's okay, i don't watch tv much anyways, it's mostly cartoons here..lol.. I do at least have my internet, it's in with my home phone, and i made sure that & half my cell got paid, cause i need my phones incase the school has to contact me about Ty, or something happens to him or Bella here & i need to contact someone... ... So i'm very THANKFUL that Tim's overtime is back... He said he's not sure how long it's going to last, but i pray that it lasts till we get caught back up on our bills...

And the last thing i'm stressing about is my marraige... Yesterday, I wrote about the fight we had... And i know he's sorry, but i also know that the comments i recieved about it are right..  He's got to change, or i've got leave...  It hurts me so bad to say it, because he's my soul mate, but i don't want to be scared of my husband...  I don't want to be scared of the man that sleeps beside me in the bed... I know he's extremely sorry, and I know how his dad gets, I've been there, and his dad is an extremely scarry man when he's angry, and i'm scared that Tim's headed that way... That terrifies me, I know that that is the last thing he wants to be, but i can't help but wonder if he's not headed that way....  He's sorry, but sometimes, sorry just doesn't cut it......,

So all in all it's been a stressful day, money, my kid's health, my marraige.... Tomorrow Ty goes back to school (which makes him happy, he loves preschool :)! )... And it's trick or treat night here in Floyd County!!  Since Tim will be working late tomorrow night,  my mother in law said she's trying to work something out so that the kids & i can trick or treat with her, her 10 year-old daughter, & her grand-niece... She's worried about me & the kids being out after dark by ourselves.... It's very sweet of her.... We haven't always gotten along,  infact, it's only been this past year that we've really been getting along...  But she's going through a hard time right now... Both her mother-in-law & her mother have cancer...  Her mother-in-law lives in Texas (over 2,000 miles away) & is now doing chemo.. They say she's doing really well... But her mother, who lives in Michigan, on the other hand isn't doing as well...  She can't do any chemo, they've got her in the hospital right now, not sure when she'll be able to go home, and they've only given her 46 weeks to live.... So i've got her in my prayers.... God, all i know is that it must be hell, having you mother & mother-in-law both sick at the same time, and your to far away to do anything to help....  I pray i'm never in her shoes....

God, I pray tomorrow is a better day!